I was sitting at our oldest daughter's kindergarten graduation yesterday and I was having a hard time believing this baby that I swear I was just holding in my arms yesterday is a first grader. How can that be? I remember adopting her when she was 72 hrs old and as I looked at what was by far the most beautiful person I had ever met I was trying in my mind to freeze time. So now 6 years later here she is riding a bike, swimming, reading, taking guitar lessons and all this without my help. It dawned on me that she doesnt need me for those things that seemed so huge at one point. Then just as I thought my heart couldn't take anymore I was laying in bed this morning before the sun came up and I felt these sweet, soft arms wrap around me and as she curled in close I smiled thinking,"ahhhh, she still needs me for this..............even if it is just to keep warm!"
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Have you ever had one of those days that the minute your big toe touches the ground you know you should have stayed in bed? If you said no your lying. Anyways, I had that kind of day today. It was like the planets were all aligned wrong, it was going to be a full moon, God thought I could handle more than I could or something along those lines. I mean I even felt off. I was sick to my stomach, grouchy, annoyed with people and situations and really just needing to get to church to clear my head and get into worship. I was sitting in our office about 8am or so when I heard this really horrible sound in the kitchen. I mean REALLY LOUD! I went in to find our two little girls screaming, the bird cage on the ground all broken up and the dog chasing the birds. Our puppy had tossed a toy in the air and decided it was best to launch himself through the air & land on top of the bird cage to catch the rope he was chasing. I looked up to see he had one of the brids and so now we are all screaming which by the way if your wondering does wonders for a situation like this. The cat just sat in shock at the spectacle in front of him. I finally got the bird out of the dog and the dog and cat out of the room. I also caught the mean birds that by the way I dont really even like and put them back in their cage screaming the whole way as they were attacking me. Again, screaming does help in an emergency trust me on this. :) So long short of it is I was exhausted by 830am this morning my husband was still not home from his 72 and I decided when life is that exciting that early in the morning its best to just go back to bed and start over. No good can come from starting a day like that.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
"Jesus loves me this I know, for the bible tells me so" ok, so you know the rest but for those friends of mine out there who are pregnant for the first time you have to know something; when you hear your 2 year old dancing down the hall way singing this for the first time all by herself you will melt. You will well up with this sort of emotion that you didnt know could exist right after cleaning crayons off the wall, but yes there it is the sweetest 12 words you have ever heard. You think it might not be so with your second child but ahhhh yes thank you God it is. Just another reminder he gives me that he is so good and that faith like a child is so important. Good night and God Bless all you moomys to be.