It has been that kind of week. Ups, downs. Some more downs.
I am caught between supporting my WAY overstressed husband who is trying to do the right thing at work amongst scandal and people causing dissension. And wanting to just go down and slap people upside the head. Ya' the later would feel really good but alas I couldn't find that answer anywhere in scripture this week.
I was sitting at the computer this week getting ready to Google something and a thought popped into my head; wouldn't it be so cool if we could Google God? Like type in a question and *POOF* up pops 1 answer on what we should do in any given situation. Or an answer to prayer that we have been seeking and seeking. I'm not down playing Gods ability to answer us or open doors it's just sometimes the journey there seems so long and daunting.
I want to be content where I am, in this very place but frankly I'm over CA. I'm over the drama of the city my husband works for. I'm over the rat race. I'm kinda just over it.
My husband just enrolled to go back to finish his bachelor's. He's over this place too. To be totally transparent we are praying him finishing school will open a door for us that allows us to exit CA.
I have been struggling with being a stay at home mom. Wait, let me rephrase that; I have been struggling with the attitudes of others who feel being a stay at home mom and home schooling is not as important as working outside the home. There that's better. My mind and heart battle because I know in my heart these girls are our ministry. Dan and I made the commitment even before we were married that we would live inside of our means so I could quit working when our first was born. For me to be present when he often cannot be. My head on the other hand tells me that the world does not place value in eternal things only material things. That I should be doing more! More! More! Then my heart jumps in and says,"More? More than raising and teaching and loving two human beings that are AMAZING little people?" Then my head says,"Yes more. More clout in career, more money, newer cars. Feeling and looking important to those around you." Then my heart says,"NO!"
I'm pretty sure this post might be a downer without meaning to so here's me switching gears. I mean I want you to come back after all. ;)
|Here are the pictures of Ryanne in her circus classes. She takes swinging ladder and trampoline.|
|Rachel had her up on the silk ribbon. Talk about requiring upper body strength. Whew!|
|"Hello, God it's me Christy again. Please don't let Ryanne run off and join the circus when she grows up. Ha!"|